It was a peaceful morning. My wife and I had gone out for coffee and to get a few things for the house. There wasn’t all that much to do today but it would still take me ages anyways. Waiting for my wife, I sat down outside of the Save on Foods. God I loved her to pieces, it is a shame that most young people don’t know the meaning of love. I waited for what seemed like ages and the stress came back. Regrettably I have PTS, a condition affiliated with the war times. As I was sitting on the stools the memories came back.
I was in the battle field, a 16 year old boy who had no business being in the midst of a war.
“JOHN! MOVE!” my colleague Samuel yelled at me. The bombs were coming down and the battle was a slim chance at us winning. Seconds away from being obliterated I ran to get out of the way.
“THANKS!” I shouted my thanks back. This was my worst nightmare. I never wanted to be here in the first place. I continued running trying to stay out of as much of the battle as possible, “SAMULE BEHIND YOU!” he turned around just in time. He shot to kill. It was a wretched place to be. The stench of death lingered everywhere. Fear slithering through peoples minds. Not a single person wanted to be a part of this war. My mind was racing and my body was one step behind. I continued to run this way and that, dodging the shots of my comrades and the enemy.
“Just keep one foot in front of the other. Just keep running. Just GO.” I was talking to myself now, my mind finally broke.
I snapped back out of my trance for the time being, the images of the war lingering at the edge of my subconscious. My hat had come off my head and had been crumpled in my hands, my hands covering my ears. This was a very bad habit of mine, when I go into a reminiscent memory I always put on and take off my hat as well as cover my ears. It is all a part of the PTS and everyone is different, this just so happens to be a perk of mine. I take a deep breath and look up to see my wife walking out of the store. I try to clear my head so she does not know. She worries about me all the time. My bones ache and creak as I slowly get up from my seat, the unfortunate effect of age.
“Hello dear, I did not take too long did I?” My wife asked smiling at me as we slowly walked on. I continuously forget how hard walking is getting, especially with a limp and a stiff knee.
“No you didn’t take long at all.”
“I’m glad, what did you do to pass the time?”
I did not want to tell her at all. I did not want to worry her more than need be.
“Oh nothing, I just watched as the people passed by.”
It is an awful feeling avoiding telling her the truth but her smile is what keeps me going through the day. We walk on out of the building to continue our day. Charles and I are going to play checkers later today and Molly is going to her knitting club. The day passes by slowly but that’s all I could ever ask for, all leading up to D Day.